I am starting to have doubts about my new role. Not because I don’t like to be a manager. In fact, I think I’m starting to like it, but because I have a hard time with the product that I inherited. It’s just a COMPLEX beast. It has so many components, so many moving pieces. It’s an unmanageable beast. Really! It’s a beast.
I am going to stay on it for some time. I want to at least get a bonus and see what happens. I also don’t want to just leave it out cold.
So do I want to be a manager? I think so. Am I good at it? Not yet. But I see myself improving.
At times, I think I’m not good. At times I think I can handle it. At times I don’t. But I really have to just take it easy and see how it goes. If after another couple of months I still feel this way, then I have to do something about it.