Am I a good person? Who am I? Do I like myself?
I know I’m cheap. This has been confirmed time and time again. Even today, my wife asked whether we want to get sushi. I declined, but then she said that she’s going to order it. I said that I hope she has the money for it. She got upset. She started to call me names. And she said I’m going to dye as a loner.
I am a loner. I don’t need other people, but mostly because I have others. I already have a family. I don’t have friends because I never keep in touch. Friendship is never one way. But I think I can have friends. I just have to open up a bit. I have to pick up friends from work. I have to call people from time to time. But I’ve never done that. I’ve never been able to do that.
I have a desire to get better and better. That makes me happy. That creates a destination for me. And that’s who I am. Otherwise, I am not happy. So should I stop being myself. I don’t think so. I should do what I was born to do.
I like to help others. And even though I am a loner, I think I can do that very well.
I see myself as a leader. I am a leader. I know that. I am pushing myself. I am pushing others. And I enjoy doing that.