Gaining back the confidence

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What do I want to do in 5, or 10 years? Where do I want to be? In 10 years, I am pretty sure that I want to be in Poland. I want to settle in Krakow and have a vacation house in my home village of Kacwin. But what do I want to do when I get to Poland? One possiblity is to start my own software/consulting company. I have a few ideas that I want to do. One of them is creating a store from Amazon, or even selling the stuff myself. I know that Polish infrastructure is not really that good, so I have a chance. But I think I’m more interested in starting a consulting company. I would gear towards companies in the USA. From time to time, I would visit the company on site, and have all of my guys do that from time to time. But sometimes I am wondering if I’m smart enough for that. At times I really feel like I’m not the smartest guy to be doing what I do. But that’s not always the case. This really happened when I was at Markit. The job there was just way overwhelming. I am still trying to recover from that. I am still trying to regain my confidence. I know that I can do a lot of complex stuff. I can do most of the software development. I just have to better my communication skills. I have to be more at ease when I talk. It’s not easy, because I have had this issue when I was small. I am just a different person. I think differently. I communicate differently. Sometimes I think I’m a machine. But I need to talk more to other people, I need to open up to others. I just need to relax more.