I don’t like days like today. A day of inactivity basically. I feel guilty. I don’t feel good at all.
I have to ask the question: why am I getting paid? What are my goals at work? Am I going in that direction?
The answer to both question is a big no. I am not doing the work that I should be doing.
Well, it’s not really true. One, I don’t have any tasks assigned to me. That’s the problem. I should be looking actively for work myself.
Two, am I getting better as a developer? Yes and no. But overall, not enought. I spent a lot of time doing kacwin.com stuff. I should not be doing that. I should be reading dev material. I should be doing dev projects. I should be getting better as a developer and period. I know the stuff is exciting, but I should not be spending more than an hour on it. Really.
The way things are looking for me is that I will probably look for another job soon. I hate not having to do anything. I have no direction whatsoever. That is not good. I just need to prepare myself and be ready for everything. I have spent a year and three months here. I am starting to smell something more.