There is hope at the end of the tunnel. There is a green light after giving the best effort. I am seeing it. I am making some strides. I am getting better. One day at a time. One learning at a time. I will get there. Failure is not an option. I know my weak points. I know that if I get better in visualizing things, improving things, I will get better!
I have to be more agressive in raising things, raising issues. When I doubt something, I should raise it. I should not hold things in my own head. I have been doing that. I want to open up. I don’t want to have that feeling “is my question stupid.” No. Ask. I will work on that.
For now, keep digging.