Urgency. Urgency. Urgency.
That’s what I need.
That’s what I’ve been missing. And that’s what I miss. I need it to have that “desire to get things done.” Without it, I get lazy. Without it, I take time off. Without it, I don’t get things done. And that’s why I need to add urgency to my life. Adrenaline always helps. That desire to learn is always a good thing to have.
I need the urgency. I need the urgency to complete the tasks. When I don’t, I slack off. That should not happen. At the very least, when I don’t feel like working, I should be improving my skills. I did some of that today. That’s nice to see. It’s always good to have “must learn” or “must read” items.
Today I have a good day. Allergy is almost done (I hope) and I got something completed. And, PO in Poland got stronger! What a coup by Tusk! Getting Arlukowicz from SLD is a very strong move! He is a great leader for Poland. I love the guy.
On a work front, I completed a project. That always makes me feel bettter. Way to go! More days like today!
Am I a loner? I think so. I think I might some sort of a deficiency that makes me not want to socialize. I’d rather feel sorry than spend time with other people. That’s not good. That does not make me feel good. Sad. Yeah, that makes me sad.
But that’s who I am. That’s me.
I’ve always been that way. Do I need to change it? Do I need to be upset for that reason?
Not sure.
Sometimes I feel that way. Sometimes I feel that it’s my asset.
Even if I wanted to change it, it’s not easy. I just have to make small steps here and there so at least I don’t feel sad. Yeah, socialize more, when I can.
I am slacking off.
I am supposed to wake up by 5:15 everyday. My motto is down by 10, up by 5. How many times have I been able to do that in the past week? Maybe once or twice. About time I get more serious about this. I’m not going to get better
I have a goal of being an active blogger. But I can’t seem to either have the time (because of the above) or ideas to write about. I keep repeating myself that it will get better. As long as I have it on the back of my mind, I think I’m at least trying. But results will have to come. And so far it’s not really working.
I have a goal of being a good husband. A loving husband. I try to contain myself. I try to not criticize my wife. I need to do more. I need to motive her to do better. I think I can do that by complimenting her. By pointing out the good things more. And by doing things for her. Yeah, that last part I need to do more of.
I am feeling pretty crappy. My face also looks pretty crappy. Thus, I feel a bit crappy.
I am not doing the best I can this spring. Is it because of the fact that I bought a house? Or is it just because I’m lazy.
Probably both.
Spring is allergy time for me. I take Benadryl, which makes me drowsy. But that’s just an excuse. I need to do better. I need to get more rest as well. Down by 10, up by 5. That’s the goal!
But the fact that I bought a house also does not help things. But it will pass.
I just have to get the urgency back. Be agressive! Be hungry!
Moim celem jest powrót do Polski w 2015r. Pozostało jeszcze dużo czasu. A tak naprawdę to już tylko 4 lata. Czas mija szybko.
Pytanie jest jedno: czy dalej ten cel jest aktualny?
Tak.
Czy ten cel jest realny?
Ostatnio na ten temat myślałem. I prawdę mówiąc… mam coraz gorsze myśli na temat powrotu. No ale tak to już jest. Raz jest lepiej, raz gorzej.
Jest kilka rzeczy które mi się nie podobają. One mnie gnębią. Co gorsza, nie jestem pewny czy one się zmienią.
Może po kolei.
Polityka.
Negatywizm.
Szkolnictwo.
Our house buying is moving on, slowly! I made a first big move: I applied for a mortgage! In the meantime, I upset my mortgage helper. Well, I can only satisfy one person on that front. I just hope things will turn out as they have been: moving forward!
One main thing is the closing date. If it slips, we might be in trouble. I hope it doesn’t. If it does by 5 or 6 days, we might be in trouble!
I have to say that we’re getting closer and closer to the B day. No, not the birthday day. Buy-house date! It’s crazy that the deal can still fall apart. I hope not. I hope we can seal it tomorrow or Saturday. I really do, so nobody else can steal it.
I’m still hopeful that it will go and we’d be able to buy it. I’m keeping my fingers crossed.
If it falls apart, I’ll be really upset. That would make the woman unprofessional. It would make her look “money hungry.” But she’s probably still hoping to get a better offer. Does she? I can’t say. I hope she’s over it. It’ll still hurt her since she has to pay a lot, but’s the nature of the business.
I got a great deal and I hope to seal it soon. Feeling better and better about it, actually.