I have to control myself a bit when I drink. I get into a good mood and then I drink a lot. I should stop, take my time, talk to others, talk to my wife. Yeah. One thing I’m neglecting is that I don’t pay much attention to her. It’s as if she wasn’t there. I need to stop that. I need to take some time and talk to her. I can do that. I want to do that. She cares about me. I should care about her.
Does she care about me?
Most of the time she does, I think. But when I do something wrong, it’s really tough. That’s just the way she is. Really tough to handle. When she starts calling me names, that’s even worse! I can’t really take that. At that point, I should go outside or something. Something that will let her know that it’s not acceptable. I cannot accept that. I will not allow it. Period.
In some things she’s great, in some others she needs some guidence.
I just want here to open up a bit more. I want to help her. I know I can. She’s helping me, I guess. She’s totally different than I am. But over the last we weeks, I see some improvement. I am improving. I am changing my approach and I think she’s responding.