Some resistance to doing the best possible job? Perhaps. But is that abnormal? Probably not. On the positive side, I am focusing on work related tasks. That’s a nice change from my previous jobs. I do work and dev related tasks pretty much all the time. That’s a big accomplishment.
I should also focus on being more plorific. On any task. I have some work to do in that regard. But things will improve as I gain more and more understanding.
I did raised my voice today during a meeting. That’s a good thing. I need to do that more often. I do feel some nervousness. Not really sure why. I need to attack the feast so it’s gone. How? I need to force myself to getting rid of the fear. Keep attacking it. Keep fighting it. And I will overcome it. Making a mistake is nothing. I should make more.
My wife told me a scary thing. She lost Fabian. Oh, no. Something struck my heart. SHe did lose him at the Bergen mall. He got away and went to Whole Foods. She looked around with no luck. That was really, really scary! But she eventually found him.
Gotta run. NJ Transit alert.